HELP! I AM AN UNWANTED CHILD, ABUSED AND ABANDONED BY A FAMILY

ImageYou don’t never ever blame a child no matter who they are and no matter what they got, children are people too and they do have human rights. They violated me from my child hood and things did not get no better for me instead things gotten much more worst, they always treated me like a slow and a retarded child and they CALLED ME CRAZY FOR NOTHING I DONE. D Even while I am a grown adult and STILL CALL ME CRAZY BUT  LOOK HOW I WAS TREATED. ; I started school at age 5 and they taken me out of school Carmella Barber started to isolate me at a very young age and I really needed to be in school to get that socialization that children really do need and American Black people had to fight for their right to a free and just education and other people as well and a( MIND IS A TERRIBLE THING TO WASTE )and I went back at age 71/2 years old and I had to learn how to read and write but them people did not teach me the alphabet and the numbers and I had to learn my primary crayon colors and then I had to learn how to spell my own name and I ended up over 3 years behind in school because I didn’t have no proper family back up and they didn’t really care anything about me at all and that was not my fault at all and when I tried to get a real paid job, somebody always stood in my way and I always had bad breaks from the start I was not supported by this family and while I was a youth I expressed that I wanted to work so that I can get paid for working and I  had every right to work and to get paid to work; and if you can’t work then how are you going to pay  your rent, put food on your table, buy your own clothes and shoes and other personal thing for yourself and pay your medical bill, and other vital things YOU CAN’T LIVE ON THIN AIR we all need to have something to live on. and when I wanted to work the mother wouldn’t let me work but all the other kids who worked gotten paid in the summer youth programs and I thought it was good for children to get a supported paid job .especially for those who want to work and support themselves.

September 1976, the so called parents put me out of the home for nothing I done and I was doing house cleaning and Ronald and Patricia was not helping me, I  was the only one working and the man launged towards me and he tried to hit again and he called me a yellow bitch I dropped every thing and I left the house for my own personal safety and the so called parents put me out of their home and I didn’t have no paid job and I didn’t have no other personal income and money of my own, they put me on the streets of Chicago ,Illinois and I was much too decent for that.and the other sister and her husband had taken me over to grandmother’s home on the mother’s side of the family because I didn’t have no where to go and I never did run with too many people because I need room to escape; our grandmother had taken my bags of clothes and personal belongings and she took me in because I had no where to go and she said Charlene at least you are not out of doors; and that was to save me for my protection and while I was still age 15 years old the mother was cooking on the stove and told me Charlene every women needs her own kitchen and her own bath room. I was too young to date anybody at all.I really feel that everybody just wanted to rush me out of the home and out of the family and that is not treating me like a biological relative at all, NO IT’S NOT; I bonded and I trusted these people and now I do really HATE they took me to this family because I got hurt by the set up FOR NOTHING. THAT IS WRONG, THAT,WAS NOT FAIR TO ME FROM THE START. and what about the time when Patricia called me to so called invite only my children to her son birthday party, she had an excuse ,she hated me from the start every since child hood, she said I know that you are busy and I can under, she really didn’t want me there in her apartment and to see what was going on; I am my children’s mother, Alexander and Vincent are my kid, they are not no body else kids. THEM PEOPLE NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY FOR ME AT ALL AND THEY NEVER HAD NO LOVE FOR ME AND MY KIDS AT ALL. THIS IS A CRYING SHAME.

this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected, blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruel by the family and everything is my S from start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because his files were missing, he was not support that way and that was my son fault and that was not my fault either. I didn’t work there. and he didn’t either; they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Everybody treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and everybody all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life, they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no dumb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurt me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed ,abandoned, punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family, they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood, adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too ,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back ,it said I was not eligible for any, cash assistance, SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee, WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my supplemental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was baby sitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own,including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time,I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at a. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all. It is very dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink. and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the beginning. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July the summer of 1967, I was just only 11 years old, while I was playing with friends in the neighborhood a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gae me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I was adopted. and when I was age 12 Nelson picked up a brook stick on me he was about to beat me with the broom stick and when I was 15 years of age he slapped me in my left eye while I was trying to explain something to him I heard a PULP sound and I saw star lights in my eyes I was so scared for my life I thought I was about to die and I had to put a cold towel over my eye because I didn’t want my eyes to swell and then I ran and said Yo MaMa, I ran under the bed and he beat me in my face, the man could have killed me for nothing. And when I was 16 years old the so-call sibling rivalry Patricia she was quiet she was not even crying about nothing at all; but she waited until her father walked in the front room door and then I heard her she did suddenly start to cry to Nelson and I saw him rush in the kitchen and he snatched a broom stick from behind the kitchen door. and I can tell Patricia always hated me from the start, she never did accept me for a sister at all; . I am not dumb I’m not stupid. and I do know that everybody think everything is all my S and everybody think I am lacking in intelligence. and what about the time when I tried to talk to Patricia she told me Charlene shut up with your mental instituted self and that was really uncalled for and they don’t want me to communicate with other people. I got a right to talk to other people, I am a person too just like everybody else, I got a right to my difference too and I do know better; I am not an ignorant person. I’m NOT like that.. Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliberately being financially disadvantaged. and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind. and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice. and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it .and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind .and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice. and also in 2006, I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it .and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself THEM PEOPLE FRAMED ME SINCE I WAS AN INNOCENT SMALL CHILD AND THEY PUT CITATIONS ON ME TOO WITH A 1985 chevy van tan color and WI Plates and the Milwaukee police was looking for me for a van I never even drove at all;  Ralph James wife Ms Morgan and his in laws drove the van I never knew how to drive at all and a former landlord informed me the police came to her door looking for me all because of what them other people did with the van and I gotten framed for that too in 2001,2002 and 2003 and no telling what else I got framed for all because some damn woman and man didn’t want me, the whole damn family they turned on me several years ago. And they played all kinds of criminal mind games with me and they caused me to have a very bad nervous condiction and they damn near caused me a nervous break down and there are very jealous and racist blacks in the family.
I know because I been put through pure hell in this family and I was never wanted from birth; the father denied me and the mother denied me as their child that was not fair to me at all I am a person too, I have feelings like everybody else do my children and I don’t appreciate being treated like an object with no feelings and I don’t appreciate them people in this family feeding me and my children like a rat. We are people too, I don’t care what we are to them people they are not no better than me nor my children and I don’t appreciate being BULLIED by a family who I did not pick and choose to be taken too and I was born an innocent baby and my children were born innocent babies like all the rest of the babies too. I can see that I have my difference too and I had a right to my difference and this family never even thought enough of me to respect my rights to be different no matter how different I was and they don’t have no respect for my children just because they are my children and they look like me and their father. THAT IS TOO MUCH HATRED AGAINST ME AND MY CHILDREN FOR NOTHING. no one is perfect; IS EVERYBODY ELSE KEEPING THEIR NOSE CLEAN?

a family who only treats me like an outcast and an outsider, I been called racist derogatory names like albino, dye that shit black ,dancing eyes, yellow gal, white girl, yellow bitch and white bitches too and yes by black people but it got started from the family first, I am a black women of color I didn’t deserve no abuse; I GOT  HURT BEING DICTATED TO AND I DIDN’T NEED TO BE CONTROLLED,I am not a criminal; there is nothing wrong with me I am not like that. I am really sick of the siege.

this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start, then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected, blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and everything is my Shit from start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander  was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because his files were missing, he was not support that way and that was my son fault  and that was not my fault either. I didn’t work there. and he didn’t either; they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Everybody treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and everybody all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no dumb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurt me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all everybody did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way .that because I was nothing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why nobody came to remove me from that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed, abandoned, punished and bullied. ALL THEM PEOPLE DID WAS TREAT ME LIKE A CHILD AND STEAL FROM ME AND THEY STEAL FROM BOTH OF MY CHILDREN. AND I REALLY DO HATE THIS DAMN FAMILY and for several years of my life was wasted by UNPROVOKED HATE CRIMES I DID NOT DESERVE TO GET FOR THE DEEDS I DID NOT DO TO NONE OF THEM DAMN PEOPLE, THEY NEVER WANTED ME IN THIS FAMILY NO WAY AND THET DON’T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AND THEY DON’T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON NONE OF MY CHILDREN AT ALL. NO THEY DON’T. The people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family, they never taken the time with me and    the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me, It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood and adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too, things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back, it said I was not eligible for any cash assistance ,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee, WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my supplemental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really comfortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a makeover. I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, his aunts are Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was babysitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own, including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time, I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all, It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July 11-1967 the summer of 1967, I was just only 11 years old, while I was playing with friends in the neighborhood a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gave me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I WAS ADOPTED. and when I was age 12 Nelson picked up a brook stick on me he was about to beat me with the broom stick and when I was 15 years of age he slapped me in my left eye while I was trying to explain something to him I heard a PULP sound and I saw star lights in my eyes I was so scared for my life I thought I was about to die and I had to put a cold towel over my eye because I didn’t want my eyes to swell and then I ran and said Yo Ma Ma, I ran under the bed and he beat me in my face, the man could have killed me for nothing. And when I was 16 years old the so-call sibling rivalry Patricia she was quiet she was not even crying about nothing at all; but she waited until her father walked in the front room door and then I heard her she did suddenly start to cry to Nelson and I saw him rush in the kitchen and he snatched a broom stick from behind the kitchen door. and I can tell Patricia always hated me from the start, she never did accept me for a sister at all; . I am not dumb I’m not stupid. and I do know that everybody think everything is all my Shit and everybody think I am lacking in intelligence. and what about the time when I tried to talk to Patricia she told me Charlene shut up with your mental instituted self and that was really uncalled for and they don’t want me to communicate with other people.I got a right to talk to other people, I am a person too just like everybody else, I got a right to my difference too and I do know better; I am not an ignorant person. I’m NOT like that.. Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliberately being financially disadvantaged. and where I am living I am having trouble getting a Medicaid  card of any kind. and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice .and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
and where I am living I am having trouble getting a m medicaid card of any kind and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice .and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it .and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
. When my son Alexander was in Warren Park 6700 N Damen Ave, he mysteriously gotten away from here on July 28,2008 and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teeth was clenched (jaws is jammed). He would not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled back to his head, I did see that. he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and he was floating between 17 different hospitals and nursing homes and they treated my son like shit as a result of that; there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs I did not do that to my own son. that happened when he was suddenly in someone else’s place and care. he was not at my home when all of this happened to him .and not no one even talk to me about it; my son had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never forget all of the pure hatred and hell them people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a 5 year old baby girl and for grown people responsibilities. and there are very jealous and racist blacks in the family.
I know because I been put through pure hell in this family and I was never wanted from birth; the father denied me and the mother denied me as their child that was not fair to me at all I am a person too, I have feelings like everybody else do my children and I don’t appreciate being treated like an object with no feelings and I don’t appreciate them people in this family feeding me and my children like a rat. We are people too, I don’t care what we are to them people they are not no better then me nor my children and I don’t appreciate being BULLIED by a family who I did not pick and choose to be taken too and I was born an innocent baby and my children were born innocent babies like all the rest of the babies too. I can see that I have my difference too and I had a right to my difference and this family never even thought enough of me to respect my rights to be different no matter how different I was and they don’t have no respect for my children just because they are my children and they look like me and their father. THAT IS TOO MUCH HATRED AGAINST ME AND MY CHILDREN FOR NOTHING. no one is perfect; IS EVERYBODY ELSE KEEPING THEIR NOSE CLEAN?

a family who only treats me like an outcast and an outsider, I been called racist derogatory names like albino, dye that shit black, dancing eyes, yellow gal, white girl, yellow bitch and white bitches too and yes by black people but it got started from the family first, I am a black women of color I didn’t deserve no abuse; I GOT  HURT BEING DICTATED TO AND I DIDN’T NEED TO BE CONTROLLED,I am not a criminal; there is nothing wrong with me I am not like that. I am really sick of the siege.

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50 thoughts on “HELP! I AM AN UNWANTED CHILD, ABUSED AND ABANDONED BY A FAMILY

  1. I read your blog and feel very sad for your situation. Your life story is the type of abuse and hatefulness I I read about and report in my own blog. why? because society conveniently overlooks and ignores what makes them uncomfortable. An unwanted baby with albinism doesn’t make for popular reading like blogs that write about Britney Spears- no one cares to read or believe the situation I am in either with my daughter. But we fight, and keep fighting… and we keep telling our story and we don’t shut up! Ever. Until we make the change and get the answers we want.

  2. Wow…you have come a long way. You have enough to say in this one post to fill an entire blog category! You can inspire a lot of people with your journey, maybe share it in smaller chunks to keep them coming back for more. You have a very powerful blog! I’ll be revisiting for sure

  3. i read but cant image the residual effect/the pain. but i remember dropping a pail of pig swill on my big toe and man it hurt/pained forever. today i cant remember the hurt and everything else associated. I remember that it happened but really dont want to remember actual events … and let it go …

  4. I am very sorry all this happened to you. However, I can tell you are a strong individual. It takes courage to write about that. I truly hope that you find some peace. Your story touches me. I’m sure many others will feel the same.

  5. Thank-you for visiting my blog. Your life has had such turmoil in it as mine has… only in different ways. Nevertheless… the pain really hurts. I’m so sorry that you’ve endured such pain,
    grief in your heart. I just wanted to let you know reading here has touched my heart. I’m so sorry there are such cruel people in this world. Granny Gee

  6. Hey, thanks for following my blog. I’m sorry about everything thats happened to you. I’ve also been ignored and ill treated because of the way i look (white as a ghost with very pale blue eyes; i can’t even tan) even if i’m not albino- or maybe i am. Anyways its nice to know that there are others out there who’ve lived through abuse and are still fighting for a normal life; it’s freaking tough to do. Good luck with the rest of your journey through life.

  7. I’m tardy getting here. Your spirit is strong. I have sons and one was a scapegoat all his young life so I understand some of your journey in dependence. A child is at the mercy of his parents ultimately. This depicted behavior is venom spit on a human soul. Learn about your talents/gifts and I send you my strength if you need it. Your post was a difficult read. Peace.

  8. Thank you for checking out my blog. There are some really scary images there, for some people it is truly impossible to understand how things that terrifying can change a person’s personality, outlook on life and everything.
    Keep up the good fight!

  9. Thank you for visiting my blog. Your story is indeed a touching one. I hate †ђξ idea of people taking advantage of others or abuse of any form. Though I know you are a survivor, your family is very brutal for †ђξ way they treated you. †ђά̲̣̥† sort of thing d☺esn’t happen like †ђά̲̣̥† in places like Nigeria, you would definately have found someone to take care of you. Unfortunately, America has lots of abuse cases even with all †ђξ strick laws and all, children end up very affected and traumatized. If there is a way I could help you out, feel free to contact me thru my blog. I do hope there is some way I could help you. Some parents d☺n’t deserve to have children #fact#

    • The family people condemned me from the day I was born and not one single person did not even bother to protect me from these kinds of abuses in the first; the family people shamed and silenced me for several years and for decades, they robbed me of my personal dignty and they would not let work any paid jobs so I can earn my own money they crossed things up on me so bad the Illinois state will not even help me at all. I didn’t commit no crimes against my own selfk, they used me for their own personal gain and my school education was sabotaged on me several times for nothing I did not do to none of them people and I always had the worst luck with a family and I always started out with bad breaks in life from the start ,the parents were not supportive in me working and getting paid to work and I learned from my childhood not to ask for money help from the socalled parent because of the abuse and abusive ways and their withheld love and their withheld approval. they accepted the others kids they did not want me for their child at all and the siblings did not accept me at all, I nearly had a complete nervous break down because of the unprovoked hatred against, they did stalked me on my telephone for several years and so I really am looking for a better area to relocate and that is going to cost me a fee to relocate and I really don’t want to stay here in Chicago at all, I got a right to leave here. I rather relocate and live somewhere else I want love and peace.

  10. Reblogged this on scorptastic and commented:
    It is sad, when people go out of their way to have children, yet do not take proper care of them. Worse still is when they abuse their own children, unfortunately this young lady was abused as a child and still being abused all because of Albinism. Please my candid advice, d☺n’t bear children if you can’t cater to them #fact# not all adults or couples deserve to have children

  11. I had arranged one live programme on television to discuss child-abuse. To our dismay, we did not get good response. This problem needs attention and actual efforts at all levels. Sorry for your plights, why not visit some NGOs who offer guidance where you live?

  12. Thanks for following my blog. I am sorry you have had such a rough life, but clearly you are a survivor and in the afterlife the people who abused you will pay for what they did. I wish I could help you, but I am a 69-year-old invalid on a small income. I assure you that you didn’t deserve the treatment you got, and nobody deserves that kind of treatment.If just ONE person had been on your side it would have made all the difference in the world. But keep in mind that a whole lot of people who read what you wrote are on your side, whether or not they can do anything about it. I wish y ou the best of luck in the future. I wish I had some useful suggestions, but I don’t. Hang in there.

  13. Greetings of Love Charl,
    When walking into being a survivor, sometimes we must leave behind those causing the greatest pain to us. We are not able to pick and choose our family. We are able to pick and choose the people we accept in our lives. We sometimes seek the love that one day they will love us, the reality, they don’t love themselves, how could they possible begin to love you. I think you should contact United Way re: group therapy, healing is a process, and it’s important we continue to heal. As you continue healing you will attract wonderful things, people, places and things into your life, this is a journey. FREEDOM is AWESOME! WELCOME, RAINN can also offer services and referral 1.800.656.HOPE or http://www.rainn.org always love teresa

    • After Nelson Barber died February 18-2008, Carmella Barber told me, when she die she told Patricia Metcalf Barber a sibling rival to take care of me, SHE DID NOT TELL ME WHAT SHE TOLD PATRICIA TO DO, WHEN SHE TOLD ME SHE TOLD PATRICIA TO TAKE CARE OF ME; THE PEOPLE DO NOT TELL MEANYTHING AT ALL; THEY JUST KEEP ME IN THE DARK, THEY ALWAYS TREATED ME LIKE ARETARDED CHILD, I AM NOT A LITTLER GIRL, I AM A GROWN INTELLIGENT WOMEN. PATRICIA BARBER REALLY DO HATE MY GUTS AND I AM NOT GOING TO DEPEND ON PATRICIA, I DON’T NEED HER AND I DON’T NEED THE REST OF THIS TO DEPEND, THESE PEOPLE DID NOT WANTNO ALBINO BASTARD CHILD IN THEIR FAMILY, THAT WAS FAR TOO MUCH HATRED TOWARDS ME AND THOSE PEOPLE HAD ME LIVING LIKE I WAS IN A STRAIGHT JACKET AND THOSEPEOPLE ALWAYS CALLED ME CRAZY AND THEY THREATENED TO, TO TAKE ME TO A PSYCHIATRIST TO FIND OUT IF I’M CRAZY OR NOT, PUT ME IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION,OR AN ODDY HOME FOR BAD AND TROUBLED GIRLS AND THAT WAS VERY DANGEROUS, IT WASNOT WARRANTED AND I DID NOT DO NOTHING TO DESERVE THAT KIND OF TREATMENT AND I DID POSE NO THREATS NO ONE IN THE FAMILY AND I DIDN’T POSE NO THREATS TO NO ONE IN THE COMMUNITY AND I OFTEN APOLOGIZED TOO FOR NOTHING AND THE DEEDS I DID NOT DO. THOSE PEOPLE DID NOT WANT ME AND THEIR FAMILY AND THE ABUSES AGAINST ME NEVER DID
      Thanks for the moral support. please share my story with others.

  14. Hi …
    I believe you.
    You can work a blog and you can write, so you aren’t stupid; regardless of what anyone tries to tell you.
    You are anguished, you are hurt, but you aren’t vengeful—all you want is a fair deal. I respect and admire that.

    So let me tell you—if you do the very best you can, all the time, then no-one can justifiably point the finger and call you names. Read that again, I said “justifiably”, the word is very important because people will point at you and they will call you names (it always happens with small minds, they can’t help themselves) (cats gotta poop, dogs gotta scratch fleas—it’s in the nature of the beast).

    So here’s something else to always hold in your own mind: There’s only ONE opinion of you that really matters in the whole world … and that one is your own.
    Understand this please (actually I think you already do) that nobody else’s opinion of you really matters a damn. No single person’s, no group’s—so long as YOU know the truth and respect yourself, no-one else matters.

    Some pathetic loser-folks try to make themselves seem big by standing on other folks. But it doesn’t work. The only thing that makes someone bigger is accomplishment, no matter how modest. A big flashy car doesn’t mean a big man, a big flashy house and expensive flashy jewellery doesn’t make a big woman. Only a big heart can do that.

    I think you have a big heart—please don’t let them beat it down or take it from you.

    • I want to thank you for taking the time to read my blog story, life for me has been a pure hellish nightmare, and the family people walked all over me like a door mat, and they never had no regard for my personal safety and no regard for my children’s safety either, and they do not have no kind of mercy for me and my children not at all, those family people who taken home when they didn’t want to be bothered with me and they isolated me too. and they shamed and silenced me for nothing I did not even do, and it was very wrong.

  15. From one door mat to another Charl, you are a courageous survivor! Thanks for sharing your story. It can inspire others to go on. The world is full of horrid acts. One thing thing that’s helped me is to help others worse off.
    Forgiveness is not approval, it is for you, not them! To move on and heal makes you the winner…the best revenge is a good life!
    Drugs and alcohol can and does make even good people lie, cheat, steal and worse make people seem like monsters. Inside every

    • People really need to understand that Child Abuse do happen to innocent children, and we really do have real mean, nasty and cruel people who really like to abuse, pick on and bully children they really don’t like, and if it is your family abusing you like that, it is a real tragic and an unjustified life sentence that they did imposed on you and they do not tell you why, well it did happen to me that way, because those family people never did tell me why either.

      Thank you for the moral support.

  16. My dear friend you have gone through a terrible ordeal of abuse
    Abuse in my life has changed because I believed in my self
    It’s not easy especially when the abuse is from corrupt individuals
    who are in a position of authority who people trust,
    These people need removing and replacing with people who care
    Who can change a persons situation by there individual needs
    as everyone’s different but being around and in contact with people who you can depend on and trust matters
    I get a thrill if I can help a friend or a person
    It always gives me a feel good factor,
    Not everyone in the world is bad ,
    Some are just ignorant and carry on with there own lives forgetting about the old lady who is lonely next door
    And some say nothing and turn a blind eye to what they have seen
    I have learned even the abuse i have suffered and my illness
    which is very serious now ,I carry on being me and loving the people I love,
    My friends play a big part in my life because they know me
    And can’t be corrupted and I don’t want to remember the bad times
    Because there gone in the past forever,
    I carry on loving the people I love because true love is forever
    I am sending the warmest of wishes with smiles
    to make your life a little better and will continue reading your pages
    hoping to see you happy always remember your beautiful
    Bless you with love always
    Daniel angel from Cape Cornwall

  17. Adults who have been rejected, neglected or abused as children usually have anxiety/fear and depression. I struggle with these issues in my life and I suspect you do as well. I have the following scripture written down so I see it first thing in the morning. I read it and practice it before I begin my day. Truly asking God to help me take the steps I need to take each day, relieving me of the anxious feelings I have, having the faith that He will do so then giving thanks to Him as if it has already been done makes every day easier. I hope it helps you as well. Blessings and Love to you.

    Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus. —Phillipians 4: 6-7

  18. Hey! My family always taught me to believe that God throws tests and hurdles to those He loves the most and I might not always believe it but right now, I wish for that to be the greatest truth!! You are an inspiration and I hope and pray that things get better for you ‘cos I know.that you deserve it!! Much love Charlene!

  19. That is quite the narrative to say the least. Keep your chin up and your eyes focused straight forward. Stay on the high road. Look up and not back. Life is strange, the journey stranger. The key is to make it YOUR journey. That my friend makes any life a beautiful thing. It is yours and yours only.

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  21. Charl the Bible says you are loved by God the Creator..you are a Child of the King. You are a jewel in His crown. The apple of His eye. So loved that it is as if God has your name written on the palm of His hand. So loved that His love extends to the skies, His faithfulness extends to the heavens.

    I am so sorry you were abused & mistreated, that is an evil way to treat a child..you did not deserve any of that.

    I just want you to know the TRUTH…which that you are deeply loved by God, He calls you into His family, and has bestowed blessings on you from Heaven. He will give back the years the locusts have eaten away. And call the people who are not my people–My People, and will be their God.

    I want you to know how much you are loved. How precious your are. How valued your life is. And that you do have family..and God will not leave you nor forsake you.

    You have my support and prayers. You deserve a better life than where you started, don’t believe the lies.. believe God’s truth about you.

    xoxo

    • Hi I really needed that because I was an unwanted albino baby girl my whole entire, the people who took me home do got something against people with albinism, and the family people said they don’t have people in their family with albinism, they did say that, I should not have had to dye my hair brown and wear brown hair wigs, and thank you for the moral support

  22. Thanks for stopping by my blog–it led me back to you. I am so sorry about all you have experienced, but you are strong and courageous to be sharing your story. Thank you. Stay strong!

  23. Hey Charl, thank you for following my blog. Your life story is deep and touching to the core and you are so wonderfully made. We were all born for a reason and things we went through were only for a season, we were all born to be greater than we are, together let us hold hands as we share and inspire. Let us walk into our purpose (reasons) and find the greatness within ourselves and let it shine. Together we will.

  24. I am astonished, truly astonished.

    I truly, deeply wish you to find a better life. I know a better life is possible, I know from experience. I see a lot of pain in your pages. I hope dearly you find the strength that is in YOU so you don’t feel need to ask for help. You can do it.

    Sincerely,

    N’n.

  25. From your post the pain is so evident, I hope that you will find peace and happiness soon, I cannot say that I know the pain that you are feeling because I didn’t go through what you did, but I can tell you that healing is possible. You have began the process by telling your story and acknowledging what happened to you. Stay strong.

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