THIS FAMILY NEVER HAD NO FUTURE FOR ME

June 1976 on my high school graduation day a black female ran past me and she stuck me with a sharp object a pin in my left side and she ran past me fast and I neve did nothing to her I neve even knew her at all and it was a lot of distraction and Clara Pumphrey really hates my guts

I still have not forgotten the summer of 1971, I was a very decent young lady, while we were visiting a relative Clara ask me Charlene are you going to bend over and let somebody get it so you can have a baby that look just like you, they just wanted me to get pregnant and they take my baby away from me for their own personal gain and the child would not have been safe in this family just like I was not never safe in this family and I am still not safe, something about that made me feel very uneasy; 13 months later September 16-1972 someone tried to sexually assault me while I was on my way going to high school and this was in the broad day light about 10 am in the morning time. Ralph James and his brothers were taken away from their mother and placed in foster care until 18 years of age. Suddenly one day Ralph James showed up at our home while I was living at home with the parents and I didn’t know him and I was not expecting him to come over; he never said what he really wanted, he is Markham James brother. I think he came to see what I look like, Ralph James is NOT RELATED,TO ME  he and his people keep blaming me for his mother’s responsibilities and I was only a 5 year old baby girl and I was not a baby sitter. both women left us neglected and no adult supervision of us babies.and the summer of 1976, 3 of us children was still living at home until one day suddenly Clara the aunt called my parent’s home for me and my brother Ronald who is mentally ill to spend 2 weeks at her home and I never did know what she really wanted me for any way, she only talked to my the mother her sister, she didn’t talk to me and I was a 20 year old grown adult. She asked me Charlene don’t you feel sorry for yourself, I told her no I don’t feel sorry for myself, she kept picking on me I can see that, and she did ask me in front of a women neighbor ,do you think I am better than your parents and do you like me better than your mother and father? and when I did not give her the right answer that she wanted to hear, she did turn on me, she was very angry with me and she picked a nasty fight with me in her house, she argued and said she was going to beat my ass and she tried to hit me in my face, she told me what I needed was a big black D private at the her son came out of his bed room and taken me to his room until the coast was clear, it was summer time dark outside and it was raining, I left out her front door and I never went back, we were out of there in 3 days. I been criminally abused, followed and harassed by them people over decades; June 1988, my Illinois bell service was cut in the basement and my grandmother told me Clara Pumphrey was married to a man named Willie and when he was killed in a hotel room,she tried to get his benefits and she could not get his benefits because he was married already to someone else legally a bigamy in the 1955-1956 the grandmother told me she had to put Clara in a mental institution and that was not my fault either, I didn’t have nothing to do with that at all. I don’t apreciate being used for nobody’s damn scapegoate that is very dangerous.

this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from  the start, then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point  to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED;  they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family  and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander  was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent  from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people  I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain.  Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and  all up in my personal life . they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no dumb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares,  I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and  that is  an inherited  genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with  me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that  I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a  lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP  can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good.  I really do need to get a break and a make over.  They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children;  they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON’T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON’T. NO THEY DON’T.

WHY TAKE AN UNWANTED CHILD HOME?

How can I find out if the mother and father have a legal guardianship over me because on my high school transcrips on the line where it ask for mother’s name Carmella Barber name is on that line and the line where it ask for mother’s maiden name Carmella Pumphrey is on that line. and on the line where it asked for the father’s name the line is left blank. and on the line where it asked for guardian’s name Nelson Barber name is on that line, I am wondering is there a way I can really find out if any body is my guardian or not and is anybody guardian to my children yes or no behind my back as well.,I really do want to know I got a right to know. How can I really find out because them people never was honest with me and the mother taken me out of kindergarten class where children need that socialization and I never had a chance to complete kindergarten at all and I was 7½ years old and I was nearly age 8 years old, when I returned to school and I was never ill and I was not in no hospital and I am wondering why did the mother tell me when I was a 19 year old grown woman Nelson still have jurish diction over you, yes she did tell me that, and I got picked on in the home, I got picked on in elementary and I got picked on in high school and I couldn’t walk the high school halls without hearing the students saying there she go IS THAT YOUR SISTER ? AND THEY LAUGHT AND SNICKER AT ME SOMETHING IS VERY WRONG SOMEWHERE  THE FAMILY PEOPLE GOT FAR TOO DAMN MUCH VENEMOUS HATRED AGAINST ME  AND THEY DID SET ME UP FOR SEVERAL YEARS OF UNPROVOKED ABUSE AND UNPROVOKED TORTURE  I am not lying about thatl.and they took control of my personal life and my person business these people are very hostile and they always dictated to me what to do. I am wondering How did I get a July-28-1969 birth date on my medical records and that  is not my birth date; my birth date is April-2-1956 they kicked me back 13 years of my life and this is very dangerous and is very criminal this caused lives and they deliberately messed up my children’s medical records the same way too.I am very tired of all ot this for nothing I did not do and I am still at a lost BECAUSE I WAS NOT WANTED AND THE MOTHER STOPPED TALKING TO ME ALTOGETHER SHE TOLD PEOPLE IF I CALL HER AND SHE SEE MY NUMBER AND NAME ON HER CALLER ID SHE WILL NOT ANSWER THE TELEPHONE AND THE SO CALLED MOTHER ALWAYS OVER BEARINGLY PEST ME ABOUT LIFE INSURANCE WHAT SHE TAKE TO THE FAMILY FOR WHEN SHE DIDN’T WANT ME.  I CAN’T STOMACH THIS ANYMORE. IT IS NOT FAIR FOR ME TO BE BOTHERED LIKE THAT IT IS VERY WRONG AND THEY DID ALWAYS CALL ME CRAZY AND THEY NEVER DID STOP CALLING ME THAT AND THEY DID THREATENED TO PUT ME IN AN ODDY HOME FOR BAD GIRLS AND PUT ME IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION AND I DID NOT POSE NO THREAT TO ANYONE IN THE HOME AND NOT EVEN IN THE COMMUNITY AND I COULD NEVER LIVE IN THIS FAMILY WITH NO PEACE AND I AM TAKING MEDICATION SO THAT I WON’T HAVE A HEART ATTACK OR A STROKE, I wasn’t allowed to be myself, I was told to dye my hair black by family people, and I was forced to dye my hair brown and to wear brown wigs and they always did teach me that something was always wrong with me just because I was born with a genetic inherrited condiction called Albinism. I got denied and rejected, I was teased,called derogatory racist names.abandoned by family.punished and bullied and the people on the mother side of the family they never took the time with me and the people on the father side of the family they never took the time with me either I AM AN ABANDONED ADULT CHILD WITHOUT NIO RESOURCES AND WITHOUT NO FAMILY AND NO SUPPORT AT ALL AND NOT FROM ONE SINGLE PERSON AT ALL with several million people in the country, why no one helped me out the situation that was not my fault from the beginning. Yes several years ago and I am still getting left overs from the past nothing didn’t change it gotten much worst to the point to where I can’t support myself, and even thought I had been unable to obtain paid work because someone was in the way and I still can’t even get medical card and I have no kind of income at all.I did apply for benefits,the state will not approve it and I have not been able to get back on Supplemental Income and I lost that in 1997 and I tried to at least get it back several time but it was much too stressful,
I am really tired of being used and tortured by a family who wanted me from the beginning.

Somebody should have helped me several years ago and removed me from Carmella Barber and Nelson Barber, I should have been raised in someone else’s house. All everybody is doing is using me for the money and they won’t let me get no money of my very own I got to have income to live on too. I got right to have money and money they won’t let me have THE FAMILY PEOPLE DEHUMANIZED ME DECADES AGO,  THE FAMILY PEOPLE DEHUMANIZED BOTH MY SONS TOO THAT IS WHY MY KIDS AND I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING.

THEM PEOPLE DID GOSSIP ABOUT ME

Theresa died on April 14, 2003. This is Diane Barber Ross’s daughter. Diane Died on November 9, 2006. Theresa’s mother. When Diane died nobody called me, but the woman who was supposed to be a mother to me  called everyone else she didn’t call me because I was nothing to her, when I called her Diane’s home she was already dead for about a half of week. I called Diane’s other daughter named Tammy, she was very surprised I didn’t know about it and Tammy asked me you don’t know. I told her no because no one didn’t tell me anything about it these people always did play criminal mind games I really wish somebody just tell them people that people with albinism are not dumb people and they are not lacking in intelligence.that is pure ignorant and ignorance kills. So she told me herself about her passing away. The obituary had everyone elses picture on it, Nelson Barber and Carmella Barber children picture on it including my kids (my son Alexander and my son Vincent) except for me. They left me off of her obituary on purpose and Clara Pumphrey  who is Carmella sister have pictures of everybody including mysel. they never accepted me as a relative no way I can see that.  and they put a cat on it instead of me.  My children are not their children, they are my children.them people act like they got guardianship over me and they act like they got guardianship over my children I hate that shit, they act like I don’t know what the hell I am doing but the mother she pulled me out of a kindergarten classroom and I needed that socialization, and I did not get a chance to finish kinderten class at all and I was not sick and ill and I was not hospitalized while out of school. I did not deserve to be isolated from other children like somethng was wrong with me  and Nelson Barber died February 18-2008 and  5 months and 10 days later about 161 days  my son Alexander nearly died because the way them people targeted him just like they targeted  me every since I was only a baby girl, my concern is that  Carmella didn’t want from the start and she keeps blaming me for  everything that she did and that she is very responsible from the very beginning and I am really very tired of her criminally insaulting my intelligence just because she didn’t want me for her child;  she did not have no damn right to put grown ass people crap on me at all she was very wrong from the very beginning. that was not fair to me at all.  This family been on my babies ass since the day they both were born just like they been on my ass, I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid. EVERYTHING IS A GOT DAMN COVER UP AND NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON WILL NOT BOTHER TO LISTEN TO ME AT ALL.

When my son Alexander was in Warren Park 6700 N Damen Ave, he mysteriously gotten away from here on July 28,2008 and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teet was clenched (jaws was jammed). He would not and he could not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled bck to his head, I did see that. he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and e was floating between 17 different hospitals and nursing homes and treated like trash. as a result of that; there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs I did not do that to my own son. that happened when he was suddenly in someone else’s place and care. he was not at my home when all of this happened to him.and not no one even talk to me about it; my son had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never forget all of the pure hatred and hell them people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a   old baby girl and for grown people responsibilities.

Patricia: “HI. One more thing, I don’t control Muff’s money. House is expensive to upkeep and you guys obviously don’t have a clue. And no one tells Muff what to do.” Charlene: Unfortunately some of you people never thought I was intelligent anyway. I am smarter than what you all think I am. Patricia: “Thanks for confirming how you feel about me by giving Poochie my number. I have nothing else to say to you ever.” 11/13/2011 Patricia Barber’s Text Message. “HI. This is to let you know Diane’s grandson Terrell passed away Friday in his sleep.” “For questions contact Tammy. You can let Poochie know for I don’t have his number.”

Patricia Matcalf Barber is the sibling rival who always hated my guts this is the one her mother told me when she die, she told this women to take care of me hell they don’t have nothing to do with me now, no they do not, and she do not support none of my sons Alexander and Vincent they are not Carmella’s kids, They are not Patricia’s kids, and they are not no damn other bitches kids those are my kids, and f**k those who think I got a mind of a little girl, all the sh** did come from this damn family people, I am not no damn crazy person, I JUST WAS NOT WANTED IN THIS FAMILY AT ALL.

Those people they continues to insult my intelligence this is not my family. Well them people never did treated me like a family. The so-called parents blamed me for everthing that I didn’t do and she punishes me for her misdeeds; everything my S***, she blames me since the time of birth and I was born innocent baby just like every other baby who were born as innocent. Then why did she blame me in the first place. I got blamed when I was an innocent baby and that isn’t my fault. Clara has pictures  she never had anykind of love for me and the respect for me either. She always hated me for nothing I did to her and I never had anything to do with Clara from the beginning. She never even gave me the time for some strange and a strange  reason and unexplained excuses the mother never supported me and wanted me in finding a paid job for me, even when I always wanted to work while I was a youth and jobs for the summer school break time. But everyone else had a paid job. Her excuse was her husband income was too much but the program was for me and other kids who wanted summer paid jobs. I had do without it while I was 13 years old. I sent my auntie on the father side a letter. She wanted me to spend time with her I was not allowed to go. But when I graduated from Calumet High School, I got picked on there too, and words and rumors spread around bullying there. In June 1976, after I finished the school in less than 2 months. Next month after I finish in July 1976; Carmella’s Sister name Clara called the house, I was a grown 20-year old woman, she talked to mother. They wanted me and Ronald who was mentally ill to spend 2 weeks in her home and I went with him, and she came to get us, but she didn’t take Patricia with her. It should of been Ronald and Patricia. Not Me, because I was a 20 year old grown women and the people  never even valued me as a person,they treated me like a child and I got seriously hurt by them people playing with me like a toy and an object and they always are very irritated with me from the start ever since I was first taken to this fanily, I was born an innocent child just like the rest of the people, I should not have been treated no different at all but I didn’t have no kind of control over the situation just like the other children didn’t. PLAYING  WITH PEOPLE’S LIFE THAT IS NO RESPECT AT ALL,.

I was taken into a family where I didn’t belong. (But that’s so wrong!) I don’t like the way I am still living. I am wondering how would anyone feel if people in your family start teasing you and calling you some kind of names. You wouldn’t like it, the parents will be so angry and mad at you and they didn’t tell me what was it about me that really made them so angry. Them people always gossiping about me over the years. People don’t want to listen to me. I felt like I was kidnapped in this damn family. I got a darn right to speak up and explain and express myself this don’t feel like my family to me because they didn’t treat me like a relative. I wasn’t wanted by them. They treated me very different from everybody else in this family because I didn’t fit in and they treated me so darn hostile and so damn criminal.

I didn’t count or matter. I was only a mouth to feed and I was anything but a person to them people. Them people always blamed me for grown up misdeeds and their behavior. I got hurt by their misdeeds of grown up behavior. I had no business being around them people at all. And is everything my Sh*t? No it was never my S***. Everybody focus on me and targets me. I was taken to a family where I didn’t fit in. And as a result. I couldn’t adapt in the family anywhere. Not at the home and not at the school and not even on Jobs. Why nobody never took the time and talk or explain to me, I am a person also. I am not less than a person, couldn’t somebody said something. Said anything at all?  I really need help several years ago and the state of Illinois should have been contacted to remove me from Carmella Barber and Nelson Barber and my name should have been changed so I would not been followed and harassed for the deeds I did not even do to none of them people, I just was not wanted that is what it was and what ever else it is.

HELP! I AM AN UNWANTED CHILD, ABUSED AND ABANDONED BY A FAMILY

ImageYou don’t never ever blame a child no matter who they are and no matter what they got, children are people too and they do have human rights. They violated me from my child hood and things did not get no better for me instead things gotten much more worst, they always treated me like a slow and a retarded child and they CALLED ME CRAZY FOR NOTHING I DONE. D Even while I am a grown adult and STILL CALL ME CRAZY BUT  LOOK HOW I WAS TREATED. ; I started school at age 5 and they taken me out of school Carmella Barber started to isolate me at a very young age and I really needed to be in school to get that socialization that children really do need and American Black people had to fight for their right to a free and just education and other people as well and a( MIND IS A TERRIBLE THING TO WASTE )and I went back at age 71/2 years old and I had to learn how to read and write but them people did not teach me the alphabet and the numbers and I had to learn my primary crayon colors and then I had to learn how to spell my own name and I ended up over 3 years behind in school because I didn’t have no proper family back up and they didn’t really care anything about me at all and that was not my fault at all and when I tried to get a real paid job, somebody always stood in my way and I always had bad breaks from the start I was not supported by this family and while I was a youth I expressed that I wanted to work so that I can get paid for working and I  had every right to work and to get paid to work; and if you can’t work then how are you going to pay  your rent, put food on your table, buy your own clothes and shoes and other personal thing for yourself and pay your medical bill, and other vital things YOU CAN’T LIVE ON THIN AIR we all need to have something to live on. and when I wanted to work the mother wouldn’t let me work but all the other kids who worked gotten paid in the summer youth programs and I thought it was good for children to get a supported paid job .especially for those who want to work and support themselves.

September 1976, the so called parents put me out of the home for nothing I done and I was doing house cleaning and Ronald and Patricia was not helping me, I  was the only one working and the man launged towards me and he tried to hit again and he called me a yellow bitch I dropped every thing and I left the house for my own personal safety and the so called parents put me out of their home and I didn’t have no paid job and I didn’t have no other personal income and money of my own, they put me on the streets of Chicago ,Illinois and I was much too decent for that.and the other sister and her husband had taken me over to grandmother’s home on the mother’s side of the family because I didn’t have no where to go and I never did run with too many people because I need room to escape; our grandmother had taken my bags of clothes and personal belongings and she took me in because I had no where to go and she said Charlene at least you are not out of doors; and that was to save me for my protection and while I was still age 15 years old the mother was cooking on the stove and told me Charlene every women needs her own kitchen and her own bath room. I was too young to date anybody at all.I really feel that everybody just wanted to rush me out of the home and out of the family and that is not treating me like a biological relative at all, NO IT’S NOT; I bonded and I trusted these people and now I do really HATE they took me to this family because I got hurt by the set up FOR NOTHING. THAT IS WRONG, THAT,WAS NOT FAIR TO ME FROM THE START. and what about the time when Patricia called me to so called invite only my children to her son birthday party, she had an excuse ,she hated me from the start every since child hood, she said I know that you are busy and I can under, she really didn’t want me there in her apartment and to see what was going on; I am my children’s mother, Alexander and Vincent are my kid, they are not no body else kids. THEM PEOPLE NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY FOR ME AT ALL AND THEY NEVER HAD NO LOVE FOR ME AND MY KIDS AT ALL. THIS IS A CRYING SHAME.

this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected, blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruel by the family and everything is my S from start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because his files were missing, he was not support that way and that was my son fault and that was not my fault either. I didn’t work there. and he didn’t either; they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Everybody treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and everybody all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life, they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no dumb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurt me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed ,abandoned, punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family, they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood, adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too ,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back ,it said I was not eligible for any, cash assistance, SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee, WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my supplemental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was baby sitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own,including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time,I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at a. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink.and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blamming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all. It is very dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. those two women left the home to get a drink. and they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the beginning. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at at. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July the summer of 1967, I was just only 11 years old, while I was playing with friends in the neighborhood a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gae me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I was adopted. and when I was age 12 Nelson picked up a brook stick on me he was about to beat me with the broom stick and when I was 15 years of age he slapped me in my left eye while I was trying to explain something to him I heard a PULP sound and I saw star lights in my eyes I was so scared for my life I thought I was about to die and I had to put a cold towel over my eye because I didn’t want my eyes to swell and then I ran and said Yo MaMa, I ran under the bed and he beat me in my face, the man could have killed me for nothing. And when I was 16 years old the so-call sibling rivalry Patricia she was quiet she was not even crying about nothing at all; but she waited until her father walked in the front room door and then I heard her she did suddenly start to cry to Nelson and I saw him rush in the kitchen and he snatched a broom stick from behind the kitchen door. and I can tell Patricia always hated me from the start, she never did accept me for a sister at all; . I am not dumb I’m not stupid. and I do know that everybody think everything is all my S and everybody think I am lacking in intelligence. and what about the time when I tried to talk to Patricia she told me Charlene shut up with your mental instituted self and that was really uncalled for and they don’t want me to communicate with other people. I got a right to talk to other people, I am a person too just like everybody else, I got a right to my difference too and I do know better; I am not an ignorant person. I’m NOT like that.. Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliberately being financially disadvantaged. and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind. and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice. and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it .and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
and where I am living I am having trouble getting a medicaid card of any kind .and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice. and also in 2006, I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it .and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself THEM PEOPLE FRAMED ME SINCE I WAS AN INNOCENT SMALL CHILD AND THEY PUT CITATIONS ON ME TOO WITH A 1985 chevy van tan color and WI Plates and the Milwaukee police was looking for me for a van I never even drove at all;  Ralph James wife Ms Morgan and his in laws drove the van I never knew how to drive at all and a former landlord informed me the police came to her door looking for me all because of what them other people did with the van and I gotten framed for that too in 2001,2002 and 2003 and no telling what else I got framed for all because some damn woman and man didn’t want me, the whole damn family they turned on me several years ago. And they played all kinds of criminal mind games with me and they caused me to have a very bad nervous condiction and they damn near caused me a nervous break down and there are very jealous and racist blacks in the family.
I know because I been put through pure hell in this family and I was never wanted from birth; the father denied me and the mother denied me as their child that was not fair to me at all I am a person too, I have feelings like everybody else do my children and I don’t appreciate being treated like an object with no feelings and I don’t appreciate them people in this family feeding me and my children like a rat. We are people too, I don’t care what we are to them people they are not no better than me nor my children and I don’t appreciate being BULLIED by a family who I did not pick and choose to be taken too and I was born an innocent baby and my children were born innocent babies like all the rest of the babies too. I can see that I have my difference too and I had a right to my difference and this family never even thought enough of me to respect my rights to be different no matter how different I was and they don’t have no respect for my children just because they are my children and they look like me and their father. THAT IS TOO MUCH HATRED AGAINST ME AND MY CHILDREN FOR NOTHING. no one is perfect; IS EVERYBODY ELSE KEEPING THEIR NOSE CLEAN?

a family who only treats me like an outcast and an outsider, I been called racist derogatory names like albino, dye that shit black ,dancing eyes, yellow gal, white girl, yellow bitch and white bitches too and yes by black people but it got started from the family first, I am a black women of color I didn’t deserve no abuse; I GOT  HURT BEING DICTATED TO AND I DIDN’T NEED TO BE CONTROLLED,I am not a criminal; there is nothing wrong with me I am not like that. I am really sick of the siege.

this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start, then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn’t deserve to be rejected, blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children’s father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and everything is my Shit from start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander  was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because his files were missing, he was not support that way and that was my son fault  and that was not my fault either. I didn’t work there. and he didn’t either; they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don’t seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Everybody treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and everybody all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don’t even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no dumb person, I’m not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurt me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that’s not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all everybody did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way .that because I was nothing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don’t have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why nobody came to remove me from that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed, abandoned, punished and bullied. ALL THEM PEOPLE DID WAS TREAT ME LIKE A CHILD AND STEAL FROM ME AND THEY STEAL FROM BOTH OF MY CHILDREN. AND I REALLY DO HATE THIS DAMN FAMILY and for several years of my life was wasted by UNPROVOKED HATE CRIMES I DID NOT DESERVE TO GET FOR THE DEEDS I DID NOT DO TO NONE OF THEM DAMN PEOPLE, THEY NEVER WANTED ME IN THIS FAMILY NO WAY AND THET DON’T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AND THEY DON’T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON NONE OF MY CHILDREN AT ALL. NO THEY DON’T. The people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family, they never taken the time with me and    the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me, It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood and adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too, things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back, it said I was not eligible for any cash assistance ,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don’t even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don’t have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee, WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my supplemental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don’t talk to me and the siblings don’t want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don’t feel really comfortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a makeover. I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, his aunts are Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was babysitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own, including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time, I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all, It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. Also I want to make another point, July 11-1967 the summer of 1967, I was just only 11 years old, while I was playing with friends in the neighborhood a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gave me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he broke my glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I WAS ADOPTED. and when I was age 12 Nelson picked up a brook stick on me he was about to beat me with the broom stick and when I was 15 years of age he slapped me in my left eye while I was trying to explain something to him I heard a PULP sound and I saw star lights in my eyes I was so scared for my life I thought I was about to die and I had to put a cold towel over my eye because I didn’t want my eyes to swell and then I ran and said Yo Ma Ma, I ran under the bed and he beat me in my face, the man could have killed me for nothing. And when I was 16 years old the so-call sibling rivalry Patricia she was quiet she was not even crying about nothing at all; but she waited until her father walked in the front room door and then I heard her she did suddenly start to cry to Nelson and I saw him rush in the kitchen and he snatched a broom stick from behind the kitchen door. and I can tell Patricia always hated me from the start, she never did accept me for a sister at all; . I am not dumb I’m not stupid. and I do know that everybody think everything is all my Shit and everybody think I am lacking in intelligence. and what about the time when I tried to talk to Patricia she told me Charlene shut up with your mental instituted self and that was really uncalled for and they don’t want me to communicate with other people.I got a right to talk to other people, I am a person too just like everybody else, I got a right to my difference too and I do know better; I am not an ignorant person. I’m NOT like that.. Because of this I am now at a personal lost and is deliberately being financially disadvantaged. and where I am living I am having trouble getting a Medicaid  card of any kind. and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice .and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
and where I am living I am having trouble getting a m medicaid card of any kind and I also feel that when I try to get a job, I have problems either I don’t hear from a company or I am let go and on a short notice .and also in 2006 ,I had a caregiver job and in July 2006 the IRS sent me a notice informing me that someone filed a 1040 form ending December 31-2001 bearing my social security number on it .and they picked up my children on the form and they was the head of household. and I did not do that to myself
. When my son Alexander was in Warren Park 6700 N Damen Ave, he mysteriously gotten away from here on July 28,2008 and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teeth was clenched (jaws is jammed). He would not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled back to his head, I did see that. he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and he was floating between 17 different hospitals and nursing homes and they treated my son like shit as a result of that; there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs I did not do that to my own son. that happened when he was suddenly in someone else’s place and care. he was not at my home when all of this happened to him .and not no one even talk to me about it; my son had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never forget all of the pure hatred and hell them people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a 5 year old baby girl and for grown people responsibilities. and there are very jealous and racist blacks in the family.
I know because I been put through pure hell in this family and I was never wanted from birth; the father denied me and the mother denied me as their child that was not fair to me at all I am a person too, I have feelings like everybody else do my children and I don’t appreciate being treated like an object with no feelings and I don’t appreciate them people in this family feeding me and my children like a rat. We are people too, I don’t care what we are to them people they are not no better then me nor my children and I don’t appreciate being BULLIED by a family who I did not pick and choose to be taken too and I was born an innocent baby and my children were born innocent babies like all the rest of the babies too. I can see that I have my difference too and I had a right to my difference and this family never even thought enough of me to respect my rights to be different no matter how different I was and they don’t have no respect for my children just because they are my children and they look like me and their father. THAT IS TOO MUCH HATRED AGAINST ME AND MY CHILDREN FOR NOTHING. no one is perfect; IS EVERYBODY ELSE KEEPING THEIR NOSE CLEAN?

a family who only treats me like an outcast and an outsider, I been called racist derogatory names like albino, dye that shit black, dancing eyes, yellow gal, white girl, yellow bitch and white bitches too and yes by black people but it got started from the family first, I am a black women of color I didn’t deserve no abuse; I GOT  HURT BEING DICTATED TO AND I DIDN’T NEED TO BE CONTROLLED,I am not a criminal; there is nothing wrong with me I am not like that. I am really sick of the siege.